Introspection

I have an intense personality. I know that. Most of the time I take it in stride, it's part of who I am and I don't apologize for it. But sometimes I wonder if I am simply too much for my own good. It seems that those with overly-intense personalities are viewed as myopic, nothing is seen beyond the aspect of their extreme character.

We tend to laugh at people like this and group them in with the classic fool. Jack on Will and Grace, Mrs. Bennet in Pride and Prejudice, that-big-flashy-loud-side-kick-comic-relief in ALL of the teen movies (yes. all of them). Obviously I know that i am more than that, if for no other reason I am a living human being and with sentience comes complexity (although I've known a few people in my life who could make a STRONG case against that).

But I think one of my biggest fears is always being labeled--furthermore, being seen only as that label. I don't want that, I don't think anyone wants that. I know I am a charismatic person, but sometimes I get the feeling people get tired of it. I feel like the puppy who simply has too much energy--it's cute at first but it eventually gets old. I think I'm lacking the one thing I preach the most: balance. There has to be a better balance.


If I were to make a new year's resolution it would be to use less words and more actions.