Ive never really like Valentine's day. The whole aire of romance that surrounds the day seems a little forced. Thinking back, I've never actually shared Valentine's day with anyone. I've done nice things on Valentine's day for people--I used to buy a rose for three of my friends every year--and it was always very well received but I've never actually had someone who I could share the notion of Valentine's day with.
It hasn't really bothered me, until now. As I look around me I'm realizing that it seems like everyone has someone they can share today with. For some the special someone is literally right next door, while others have a few miles to trek before they sleep. Even for those who can't be with the one the love today, they still have someone. It didn't really sink in until I got a call today and found out that one of my closest friends is getting married...in ten weeks. She and her-now-fiance-are both a year younger than me! And what's more is that she's fourth friend to get married. Other friends are in committed relationships, and I? I am.....I don't know what I am.
I am not one to wallow in my own self-pity, nor am I fishing for sympathy. I will do what I always do when the stark realization of romance rears it's cock-eyed head. Read some Raymond Carver, listen to Tom wait, and get the fuck over it. Still though, the bitter reality of the single life seems to bite a little harder tonight--it's sting seems to be lingering a little longer tonight.
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Valentine's day is generally pretty awful. Your program idea was really neat and sounded well received! I hope your SAD ended better than you're feeling right now :/ . Who's getting married?
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